Tonight my lack of sleep is catching up with me.
I’ve been dragging most of the day.
It’s not even 8pm and my bed is calling my name.
I experienced a mood swing today.
My mood dipped really low
and at one point I just wanted to cry.
At first I thought it might be the lithium
(was this one of the things
my doctor warned me about?)
until I remembered the REAL cause of my grief:
I made the mistake of reading a political Christian blog
and it upset me for the entire rest of the day.
I made the mistake of reading the comments
and I wondered how God’s people had fallen
so low and unto such hard times.
Life was so much kinder and gentler
when I kept my neck in the Bipolar Bubble
and my head down.
The one year I decide to vote
all hell appears to be breaking loose.
The writer of the blog said something
that scared me. This is not a direct quote
because I can’t remember exactly what he said
and I’m too tired to go look….
What was so terrifying? He said…
“Christianity will survive this election,
but America will not…”
in an attempt to scare people
We must save America
at all cost, right?
When did America warrant top billing over the faith?
Of COURSE Christianity will prevail.
IF anything that we, as Christians, profess to believe is
Then the enduring nature of the living God better
be the one thing that cannot and will not fail.
In that respect, it doesn’t matter which of the two
gets elected, because God WILL prevail,
but the growing division is going to leave a scar.
The spiritual strong arming in that post
IF any Christian didn’t support a certain
candidate, then the destruction of the entire
country lay squarely at their feet.
Of course supporters of the OTHER candidate
bleat out similar catastrophic warnings.
That OTHER candidate even went so far as to say,
“The only thing standing between you and the Apocalypse
Who are these people?
I can understand how they became
so self-deluded in their OWN minds…
but how did they manage to convince
so many sane people that THEY are the saviors
Last I looked… there was only One Savior
and he didn’t need THEIR help.
When did we become so divided?
When did quarrels over words become
more important than what is written in The Word?
A house divided cannot stand.
A kingdom divided will fall.
So what about a country?
What about a people?
Christian leaders on either side of the
gaping chasm that is dividing us
INSIST that they are right and the other
side is wrong…
all I see is division.
God IS love
but I’m seeing precious
little of that in either candidate
OR their disciples.
Makes me not want to vote.
It feels like a powder keg waiting to blow
and we’re standing over a short fuse.
The more I hear
the more I read
the more I believe
that supporting EITHER
candidate is going to lead
This is a lose-lose situation.
There is no way that America
How do you choose between
two egocentric people
who have set themselves
up as saviors of the world
and refuse to realize that the
world doesn’t need their
brand of salvation…??
What do you do on Nov. 8th?
Vote for the evil in red
or the devil in blue?
How do you look
yourself in the mirror
on Nov. 9th?
I wish we could hit “Reset”
and go back to a time before
the divide —
before we, as a nation,
stopped being a nation —
but since the last “reset”
involved a flood…
I best be careful what
I wish for.
Normally, the only thing
that has the power to move
me this greatly is the self-pity that comes
from wallowing in my own depression
about whatever drama is going on in my life
at the time.
So today is different…
Today I am grieving for my country
and our world,
so I guess I can
count that as progress.
Now I can see more of the world
outside of my bubble
and I am grieved by what I see.
I cannot wait until it is all over
(the election, not the world).
Something tells me that no matter
who wins –
we all lose.
Good thing that other blogger was right…
Christianity WILL survive this election
because God and his enduring nature
do not depend on it.
Today is Day 11 and I’m exhausted and distressed…
PRAISE GOD that tomorrow is coming.