How to Be Like the ACTS 2 Church Part II
I was nervous when I hit “send.”
My new ohana group? I’ve only been in it since last September… and I dropped out in February when they opted to do the “Vertical Marriage” couples study. I got a copy of the book. When I saw that there was a chapter on “God in the Bedroom,” I knew that I needed to sit that one out. That was really painful because I had finally found a small group where I didn’t just “belong,” I felt like I fit.
When I told Paul and Gerry (my ohana leaders) that God was telling me to step back from the group, I cried. They prayed for me and we all believed that God knew what he was doing. Fortunately, my ohana group had been using The Line app for group texts since September. At least I could stay connected to them that way. I still didn’t have any friends at school and I felt lonely and isolated. Having that link to my ohana group kept me going even if I couldn’t physically be with them.
Then COVID19 happened.
Church went online. Everybody else’s “new normal” looked a lot like my old one. I was actually ok with church going online. It allowed me to engage with not just Kaimuki Christian Church (KCC) which I love, but several others giving me an overview of how The Church was fairing. This showed me how to intercede for the Church during the early days of COVID.
By then, my ohana group had finished the couples study. I was excited that I could rejoin them via Zoom!
Unfortunately, I felt the familiar stirrings of panic and anxiety. Zoom was a trigger! I couldn’t handle having all those people staring at me through my laptop screen. I found it terribly distracting and couldn’t focus on what people were saying. All my insecurities and identity issues started oozing out all over the place. I persevered for a few sessions hoping the feelings would subside, because I really needed to reconnect with them.
Prayer, however, didn’t make my anxiety go away… but God doesn’t waste anything! (Romans 8:26-28)
God used my anxiety as an opportunity to connect me with the Wellspring Covenant Church (WCC) ohana where my friends Dan and Rebecca Stringer pastor. WCC live-streams on Sunday the same time Paul and Gerry have their Zoom Ohana group!
During the middle of a pandemic when everybody has to isolate, God was giving me two churches to call home. God gave me two churches where I belonged.
So… what did God do after I hit “send?”
He started moving through the prayers of his people.
People started responding with answers to my prayers immediately. I wanted to email The 51 an update, but God kept saying, “Wait.” Why? Because the final answer to prayer didn’t come until this past Thursday (see Part III).
Each of those answered prayers has a really cool, but really long story. And like the Apostle John, I’ve found that there’s not enough time or space to tell everything that I saw Jesus do (John 21:25). These highlights show the importance of including the body of Christ when we pray. I believe that it is through the body of Christ that God works most of his miracles.
Monthly Shopping, God’s Answer:
Food and body image have always been issues for me. I have Food sensitivities that cause inflammation, rashes, and bowel issues. My compulsive/binge/emotional eating only make my health worse. Additionally, shopping for food often triggers anxiety/panic attacks. After my surgeries I had mobility issues. I had to use a motorized scooter and an aid to do my shopping, so I generally avoided it.
When I went on the lithium in ’97, my weight ballooned from 138lbs to 215lbs. This caused physical and emotional problems. After my hysterectomy my weight hovered around 185lbs until I weaned off the lithium. I had to become a better steward of the body God gave me. That meant changing my relationship with food. Through cleaner eating, I lost close to 50lbs and my mobility improved exponentially!
When I came to UH, I planned to pursue a healthier lifestyle, but misadventures in my housing situation made that impossible. The dorm-size refrigerator in my room wasn’t big enough to store food for healthy meals. Initially, I struggled with food insecurity. I was afraid to spend money on food. The campus meal plan that I eventually bought wreaked havoc with my health. It might be fine for 20-somethings, but my 51-year old body was telling me quite loudly that campus food was literally too rich for my blood pressure and my digestive track. All my old unhealthy attitudes towards food began to resurface.
I share this because food and food insecurity are huge issues that can contribute to anxiety, fear, and depression. We’re seeing this happen large-scale with COVID19. But God meant food for our good. Being able to make wise choices about food and to eat food that is good for us shouldn’t be a privilege. It should be a right. My Micronesian students used to say, “Sharing is caring.”
I believe them now. During the initial days of COVID19, Christians brought me food because my money was tied up in that campus meal plan. I had no access to campus food services, so I had no food. God sent people who blessed me immeasurably!
But God never meant me to depend on the charity of others in the long-term.
Praise God! On July 1st I’d moved into a studio with a larger refrigerator. Some of The 51 contacted me offering to help me go shopping throughout the year. And one, dear soul, took me to Costco on July 24th, the Friday before Hurricane Douglas was supposed to hit! I was literally prepared for the storm!
I’m also really frugal and I’m a planner. The University refunded my meal plan money since I couldn’t access campus dining. I was able to use some of the refund to stock my fridge and freezer with food that I still have a month later.
Then my church sent me a gift card to Foodland!!! And this past week, WCC graciously gifted me with free eggs and a ridiculously large box of produce!!
Why do I share all this? Because I could’ve stayed in my room, praying in isolation… but by letting people know my needs… God blessed me in ways that I could never have imagined. It connected me with people who care and I don’t feel isolated or alone. I also don’t feel anxious or worried about how God is going to provide for me this school year. It won’t be the same way all the time, but God will provide for me. He will guide me as I continue to seek out healthy community with the body of Christ!
Last week’s message at church?
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6
And the adventure continues…